It is ironic how unaware of the approaching of the November 11 Remembrance Day celebration I have been in the last little while. I do not make a habit out of ignoring the holiday and I always enjoy the special edition programs on the topic of the great achievements of our veterans during the wars that make us so proud of them; but this year so much had been going on that it seems like it almost slipped my mind that we are approaching that important time of the year.

The irony comes from the lesson that life has taught me, in this last little while, about the very nature of war and the suffering of people during such times. Let me explain. This epiphany started to form in my mind with the taking out of the public library of a wonderfully insightful book called “Larry Burrows – Vietnam”, a book about a war photographer and his journey through the Vietnam War. I love reading books such as that, seeing stellar photo journalism at its best and hearing about the thoughts and opinions of the photographer …it can really make my day. While looking through the book I was rejoicing at the fact that I can call myself a Canadian citizen and …unless I choose to… I am not forced to go to a war zone and fear for my life. At the same time, I also concluded that, however, without immersing oneself into such an environment it is very hard to practice war photography.

These thoughts came back to me today, November 11th 2010, Remembrance Day. At 5 AM this morning I was woken up by my phone. It was my friend Lumé; and she was crying. She received a text message from her father. He was in a prison cell, already in for four hours, no food, no water, after a 9+ hour flight. That’s when a light went on in my mind. I realised, I had practised war photography less than 12 hours ago.

Lumé (Fatlume) Begisholli is a young lady in her early twenties. I met her and her sad story a little more than a month ago through my photographer friend Sarah Lisk. Sarah had been a part of Lumé’s hopes to save her family for a while now. Lumé, her father, mother and two brothers arrived on Canadian soil roughly five years ago, having escaped a place where none of us wouldn’t like to be (unless they were a photo journalist with a lot of courage), the battlefields of Kosovo. For the past 5 years they had strived to please the Canadian government’s criteria and be accepted as refugees in the country that so proudly introduces itself as the safe haven of all those who are no longer safe in their country of birth, the persecuted, the mistreated.

Recently Lumé was informed that, having been the only member of her family who received the status of citizen, she would be allowed to stay, while having to watch the rest of her family be sent back into the smoking crater of that war volcano that Kosovo is, any time ready to erupt anew. For a while she had tried every single means of appealing the deportation that she could think of. In fact a week ago I was part of a fund raiser event organised in honour of her family, in order to help them pay their legal fees.

But it was all in vain. Yesterday, Wednesday, November 10th 2010, I was there with Lumé and the Begisholli family at the Toronto Pearson airport, as with tears in their eyes they were forced to say good bye.

But this was not the story I wanted to tell you. I wanted to tell you how for this family, the horrors of war, featuring insecurity, harassment, disrespect and fear, were not as far as we originally thought; in fact they were not overseas at all. They were right here in our beloved country.


Mr. Begisholli posing for a portrait that I took for his daughter. It would not be easy to say when they would see each other again in person.


Lumé’s little brother


A family portrait. Their greatest reason for joy at that moment was that they were still together and not quite yet apart.

Above: As we arrived at the luggage check-in, the first unfortunate turn of events occurred. The government letter of deportation expressed that they would be able to take with them double the amount of luggage that they are now told they are allowed to. Some of the extra luggage can be paid for, but rearrangements need to be made …unpack, repack, on the spot, quickly! Both Mr and Mrs Begisholli are in tears.


Arjan once again. Always a smile handy even when his parents are in tears.


This is Arjan’s favourite companion. His brother calls it a teddy bear but Arjan insists it is a dog. One has to cope somehow.

Above: At the deportation department, in the airport, after walking through a door that we had to show deportation papers to a hidden camera in order to get in, and taking an elevator from a small room that looked like it was from 1945, we get to a narrow hallway divided by thick glass, where, we wait.

Eventually a rather rude officer looks at, and confiscates Mr Begisholli’s university diplomas along with other documents, carelessly folds them into four and announces that we will receive them at the gate. Of course nobody was there at the gate with the files. Lumé later inquired about the documents; the response was that Mr. Begisholli would get them back once they land on foreign soil. (why?)


Lumé after her family was no longer in sight.

Chapter 2:
After a 9 hour flight, the Begisholli family lands in Warsaw, Poland. The Polish customs officers declare their documents invalid. Treated like criminals, their hand luggage is confiscated and they are placed in locked cells. For 4+ hours they received neither food nor water (keep in mind the two boys are 12 and 14 years old). Mr. Begisholli manages to use the Blackberry phone that his daughter bought him to contact her and share his situation with her. That is about the time when my phone rang last night at 5 AM.

What Now?
Poland is sending the Begisholli family back to Toronto due to their lack of a Shangen visa. The Canadian government is then planing to send them right back on their way via a plane route through Vienna, Austria instead of Warsaw, Poland. If you care, and are willing to exercise the right of freedom to speak up, which we are so proud of having in our free country, then come out tomorrow Friday November 12th to Toronto Pearson airport! The airplane that will carry the Begisholli family is scheduled to arrive there from Poland at ~6PM.

Something NEEDS to be done! Join us in helping them here! Also! Their story will appear in the Waterloo Region Record Newspaper on Friday November 12th. Read their whole story and make the phone call that may save them from having to go into potentially worse conditions!

The other day I was part of a fund raiser event meant to financially support a refugee family that is about to get torn apart due to the government denying them the refugee status. Here are the images. The full story is here.

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I am sure the title of this post got you guys all excited, and it should! But first let me introduce to you the Laity family. I photographed them the other week and here are the results:

Now, here’s the deer story! It all started with me having a usual night …staying up editing images and talking to friends on far away continents where it isn’t night yet. Before I knew it, it was 8AM and tiredness had finally caught up with me. Well …more like I concluded that it’s about time to go to bed if I want to be able to wake up at a reasonable time (which of course I ended up not doing; that was one weird day). So I bid farewell to the few people who were still online and went to get a cup of milk in the kitchen; when then I noticed it. Beautifully reigning over my backyard, a glorious sheet of fog! I immediately concluded: the time for sleep had come and gone! It was fog-photography time!

And so I did; put a jacket on, grabbed my camera, tripod, shoulder bag and out I was through the back of the house. I got some interesting shots on the street and some in the woods near my house, but I had no idea what awaited me further down the trail. I crossed Old Chicopee Drive North-West-ward, and was about to shoot a nice panorama of the trail+reeds, when I heard some noise… and before I knew it something emerged from the fog that looked like a horse to me. At second sight, it was a deer. Cool, I thought, and put the camera to my eye and shot a picture. Before I could shoot another one, I noticed the horse-turned-deer started galloping towards me. Odd, I thought, deer are supposed to be scared of people and, if anything, run away from someone, not towards one. Well this rebellious deer refused to conform to the status quo; and I was not ready to put up with the consequences in case its intentions were other than friendly. So …I ran; for a bit, then turned around for another picture; of course the deer picked up the pace again. I wanted to stop again but I could still hear it galloping, so I ran across the street, hoping the deer would cower away, afraid of the road …or if nothing else, that some car would hit it and save me (how terrible of me thinking so selfishly, but that is now it was). No car came, and the deer was by no means afraid of the road. Lucky for me, though, the deer was more interested in getting to the other side of the road and continue its trek on the trail, than in making me a martyr. Later on, zooming into the pictures I shot, I noticed it was a male, with quite the antlers. I was not nearly as scared at the time as I should have been!


Here’s the deer that attacked me


And here’s the deer up close. I wish I had the 300mm lens on my camera when I shot this, I would have a way clearer picture! …it was in my bag. No time to pull it out, had to run

1 – The Inner Beauty Event 2010 (images finally posted!)
2 – iPhone images (make great memories)
3 – upcoming events!

1 – The Inner Beauty Event 2010 (images finally posted!)

Finally I get to post the results of the amazing Inner Beauty Event! The event was a huge success! In spite of a few of the participants not managing to make it on the day, the event itself turned out to do just what it was intended to; namely to put a smile on the faces of those involved and to show the nominees our appreciation for them. But I believe the images will speak for themselves!


Our lovely volunteer hairdresser, Cristina working her magic! Thank you sooo much Cristina, the day would not have been nearly the same without your help!


Me …modestly posing for the camera. Photographer: the talented young Marko K.


Us, at Cristina’s salon, right before heading out into town to our photoshoot location


Our friend, Juan David, serenading us while Cristina was working with our hair


Marko K. who was one of the volunteer photographers for the event, posing for me in as modest a way as his looks permitted


Co-founder of the event and one of the main photographers: Sarah Lisk


Our makeup design artist, Maria Rokicki

2 – iPhone images (make great memories)
I recently went through some old images taken with my iPhone and I gotta say, their quality may not be the greatest due to the tiny sensor and the lens, but it makes a difference having a camera on you at the right time!


My friend Alex’s new puppy! ADORABLE! He was tilting his head because I was making weird duck noises to attract his attention and prevent him from running off. He was rather shy of me. Hard to imagine why …I’m one of the friendliest people I know.


A double espresso macchiatto at Pyrus Cafe, downtown Kitchener, one of the best tasting coffees in town!


My Turkish-coffee cup one morning, smiling at me. (not fake! – as in I did not stick my finger in it to form the smiling face)


One of my fondest memories with the iPhone was the iPhone operating system version 3.1.3 which allowed one to bias exposure by tapping on an area. For example when its bright the iphone darkens the picture, but if you tapped a darker area it would leave things bright even when pointing it at the sun. Just like most good things …this one too is gone. Maybe someday again…


Victoria Park, Kitchener, Ontario


A sand castle built by some children I did not get to meet. I saw it one summer day while waiting for a friend to finish dinner before coming out for a walk and I felt I had to take some photos of it!


The loved-by-everyone “Chillaxin’ tree” from Waterloo Park. Now only alive in photography =(. Yes they cut him down.

3 – upcoming events!
PHOTOWALK: November 6th 2010.
Where we meet: Kitchener
Where we go: Guelph
Info: email me stefan.chirila@gmail.com